Nuns, March 18

I've been thinking about how I've had this interest in nuns for years.
And somehow I'd forgotten that Marie Dominique looked at me and thought, "Nun". That she wanted me to see that option, to go to vespers and to watch the ceremony for the young woman at Buon Gesu.

Lord, I don't want to be a nun, officially. But I want my life to be one of devotion and intention, of passionate and spousal love for You. These are things You can grow in me. I have not felt very hopeful or zealous about them lately. There are too many ghosts of other things and people. But keep my eyes on You, on Your face, and help me turn toward the dream You have planted in me.

Today is a good day to write letters. And to sing around the house. And choose a few small tasks for my attention. Flood me with Your grace, because I'm going to fail. Use me as a blessing. Let's keep talking.

Lioness, March 18

I fall back into fear again and again.
But I'm thankful for the courage You give me. Yesterday, when B suggested we meet close to home, I was awash with relief, but also felt cowardly and flat.
In the end, I'm glad You helped me desire the challenge and offer the farther option (with trepidation, but willingly).
That is what You do. You turn me into a lioness. 

5 Things I Am Not Allowed to Do

1. Watch bad movies
2. Jump upstairs
3. Scrub the printing off the Henckel knife
4. Put food down the drain
5. Elope

Spring Green

I am the color of growth, hope, purity, freshness, vitality, and nourishment.
I am resilient and tender.
I am calming and invigorating.
I am edible and medicinal, I am transparent
and transformative.

Turtle, March 17

I'm like a turtle You're asking to leave its shell.
Or it could be You're just asking me to move, but I always fear the worst.

Hunt Good, March 16

Please show me what I should do today. I don't want to be held back from anything out of fear or laziness or a small mind. Keep me open to Your possibilities, trusting You. Please provide for my needs. Please help me live in Your mercy and grace, and extend it freely.
Help me to eschew evil and hunt good like one in love. Give me love. That is what I want. And virtue. Fill me with the fruit of the Spirit.

Possible, March 14

It is not for us to say what is possible and what impossible.
Prove to us again that Your power, the power that raised Jesus from the dead, is still at work.

I feel as if this day is already doomed to mediocrity. Please change that. I can come to You, and give You my heart, give You all I am, have, do, and suffer (as E.E. said), and welcome in the life You will give me today. Keep me surrendering. And help me to know if there is something I should be doing differently.
One thing is decided: take my full attention. I squirm to ask that. But I'll be satisfied with nothing else. And if I really believe You, You are the only thing worth looking at, knowing, and believing in the whole of existence. So please draw me deeper. Be gentle, but don't stop. Renew my life, my spirit, my resolve. Fill me with Your love. Prepare me for whatever life holds next. Help me to be grateful.