After we dropped him off at the airport, I was spent. Thanks for helping me even in my gathering sullenness and displeasure, and for helping me get away for a while, comatose on the bed. Then I read. I browsed Facebook to mixed benefit. Reading O'Connor was probably helpful over all; her characters are so relatable and repellant. Mom made up the rest of the lamb, with stewed turnips and carrots and green beans and onions. A tasty dinner helped.
My life is not about me, it's not mine to control, and my self-realization and pleasure and dreams are not the point. Yet I have been made with particular strengths and weaknesses, particular needs, unique dreams and passions.
I should not neglect those. I should search my heart. I should use whatever gifts God has given me. I should be prepared and alert.
I should do everything in love.
I want this year to be marked by love. My life must be marked by dangerous love. Please prepare me. I refuse to die cold.
My life is not about me, it's not mine to control, and my self-realization and pleasure and dreams are not the point. Yet I have been made with particular strengths and weaknesses, particular needs, unique dreams and passions.
I should not neglect those. I should search my heart. I should use whatever gifts God has given me. I should be prepared and alert.
I should do everything in love.
I want this year to be marked by love. My life must be marked by dangerous love. Please prepare me. I refuse to die cold.
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